Retirement.

After graduation Kimball and I had a lot of time on our hands. In the past when I've had a lot of time on my hands when I wasn't in school or working or both I would go crazy, start feeling like I was worthless and would make ludicrous goals for myself so I could feel productive. So, naturally, I was worried about 3 months of nothing but waiting to be busy. 

I could not have been more wrong. And now that I think back I realize how silly I was for thinking that spending every hour of every day with my sweetheart, partner in crime and absolute best friend could be anything like it was during these lulls when I was single. I know I say this a lot but it really was

pure bliss.

The funny thing about it is, yes, we did go on a few trips and play tennis and go on date nights but, the majority of the things we did were normal day-to-day things that took no planning and no money. Just having him with me alllll the time was so fun and funny and relaxing! So when we moved and things got crazy, Kimball started work and I started my long journey to becoming a Child Life Specialist I finally realized that I sort of blew it. Not that I didn't enjoy and cherish that time we had I just didn't realize how sacred it was. It was the last time (for a long time) that we would be childless, jobless and able to do whatever the two of us wanted. 

I think about those few months of "nothingness" we enjoyed a lot now. Not that I don't love Chicago or Kimballs job or me pursuing my dreams or anything. I really do love our life now. But I can't help but think sometimes.... "only 42 more years until retirement and we get to do that all over again." 

(yes, i did look up the average age of retirement). 

In one of my many fabulous (not sarcastic) classes in school we focused on the stresses of retirement and the relationship strain that sometimes occurs between married couples because of the unexpected stressors and newfound time together that they haven't had for so long. I think about how real that is and how blessed I am to have a husband who will always be my very best friend. I know that children and jobs and stress will come in our life together and we'll get used to spending more time away from one another but I also feel very strongly that when retirement comes it will, in fact, be bliss because Kimball is Kimball and he will always be my everything. 

How blessed am I to have a guy like this?

because i am blessed.